Before covid-19 hit the whole world

This kind of writing that I really want to post to this secret pathway, and I imagine that I will read this kind of thing in the future, and if it’s not going well at least I have one human that can remind me in whenever the future bring us. Because there is a time that I’m pretty sure I will forget who I am before. And this is the whole thing about, to be reminder.

About how bad my grammar is, how dumb I am, how silly all of this story are.

But we’re human anyway. So

Waittt I just thinking that why on earth, I--one month away from my 22 birthday. Yeah finally I mention it. Still thinking too way much about “myself”

It’s not what my heart and “ideal” mind. For me, being human is to be kind and give impact to others. But look at me now, why on earth I became so selfish to the world, that I’m too much self-centered and being selfish like this.

There’s a difference between do some self-care and being worthless as human.

Like in here, I just definetely become another useless kid like another rich lazy kid. The problem is, I’m not rich, and I become lazy. Because there’s not much to do. I’m not doing my research like the other student in my age, I’m not doing some society program to empower others, I’m not doing anything at all actually. Like the hell, what are you hard working for?

There is no competitive environment here. And of course you cannot rely on yourself. So there is nothing.

Oh my, I’m craving to go home and do something.

Bangkok, 01.24.13 November 2019.

Study room 2nd floor, Krissana international dormitory.